Last night I sat with CJ and discussed what I should do about my ankle, as I had injured it earlier in the week. Then I thought how sad it was that I was having this conversation with my husband instead of with my doctor. But having this conversation with CJ was free and a doctor’s visit with an X-ray? Two weeks worth of groceries we can’t buy for our family. And that’s with insurance. 

We spend tons of money per month on health insurance we never use simply because we are penalized for not having coverage. Yet our copays and deductibles are so astronomical, we avoid going to the doctor’s like the plague; even if we have the plague. My “white coat syndrome” shouldn’t stem from fear of being unable to pay my bill. 

Observation

No matter your own personal opinion on the matter, society seems preoccupied with the use of contraceptives.

After EM was born, my nurse asked about my birth control plan. When I called to make my six week appointment, the secretary asked what type of birth control I wished to discuss with my doctor so she could make a note in my chart. When I got to my appointment, the nurse who did my vitals asked me again about my birth control choice, giving her own opinions on the matter. When I told all these women that I would not be choosing a birth control method – as I have never had one and what CJ and I do seems to work out fine – I was informed I had to be on some form of contraception and to just talk to my doctor about it.

Thankfully, my doctor was the only one who did not push me. She said the choice was my own and no one could force me to be on something I was not interested in. Since she seemed so open-minded about it, I made sure she was aware of the pressures her staff had been putting on me. I mean, one nurse had even gone so far as to tell me that if I refused birth control, my husband HAD to get a vasectomy. I was so blown away by this. Honestly, my choices are none of her business; and then to assume she could tell me what my husband HAD to do. Ha.

I have my own reasons for not using hormonal contraceptives just as other women have their own reasons for using them. I just feel that something should not be forced on others (especially by figures in authority) simply because it has come to be viewed as a societal norm.

Surprised…NOT

A few years ago, when I first began this blog and then abandoned it, I had written about the child care I worked at. If was affliated with a hospital. The higher-ups at said hospital decided that the child care was no longer making the amount of money they wanted it to, so they closed it. The kicker – other local child cares knew what was happening before we did because they had been informed of a possible influx of children.

I am now employed at the same hospital on a part-time basis and really rely on this position.

Yesterday, CJ called me from work. His co-worker had come into his office with the newspaper. She wanted to know why he had not told her that the hospital where his wife worked is closing. He had no idea what she was talking about. He looked up the article himself and then called me. This is how I found out that I am most likely going to lose my job if the hospital cannot restructure into an urgent care. Even then, the evening shift would not be the same, if it even was eight hours.

Lots of my other co-workers found out about the closure on the news. Absolutely none of the “average” staff were told ahead of time. Doctors, nurses, registrars, NO ONE. The only people informed ahead of time were the members of the board who sat in and made this decision.

Back to the drawing board to find new employment. I do not think I will be able to find anything that is so flexible with finding a sitter for MJ before CJ gets home and is so close to our house.

I was schocked about the closure, but not really about the way the hospital handled it. I mean, that was the same way that they had handled closing the child care, so…

Here is to speedily finding something to help with the fact that we just bought our home and really need to be able to make our mortgage payments :/